Being On The Straight And Narrow Is The Way I Am Meant To Live

There is a lot out in the public domain right now about women who find out they are lesbians later in life. I won't say I didn't know I was a lesbian, I suppose I knew that early in life. But I grew up where that wasn't something you could be proud of and I was raised to be a mother and wife, a homemaker and a good citizen, a school teacher or nurse. I became a nurse.

I met a young doctor who had just finished his residency and he was new in town and he stuck to me and I fo und I was 'dating' him except I wasn't. One day he challenged me about intimacy, about showing him affection. Yuk, right? I was not going to suck his dick and I wasn't going to let his dick slip in between my legs either. I said no way, not only no way, but Hell no way. Don't touch me.

But he did, and he overpowered me, and he slipped his dick between my legs and nature has it's way and I was pregnant at 29 and everyone was happy for me. The nurses in the hospital, my grandparents, my sisters. I had people I didn't know touching my belly, my sister asking me what kind of man he was that he broke down my defenses, did I like it? Tell me, isn't the best feeling in the world? What kind of man is he, is he controlling or is he one of those aloof men who holds onto the purse strings and let's you pretend? He's a rapist wasn't a good answer.

I got married, shoved down the isle and my women friends hugged me and patted my belly. Lucky you, a doctor no less. That's why you went into nursing. You got a fucking doctor, you will never have to worry. I got a fucking doctor all right, that's all he does, he fucks me. Made me get on my hands and knees and he fucked me like a 'bitch'. He couldn't keep his dick in his pants, with me or any other nurse either. Fuck 'em all seemed to be his motto. Fuck them, they are all bitches, fuck them and he fucked me day in and day out. He wasn't happy, not with one son, not with two sons, not with three sons. How about trying for a little girl, do want a little girl? Yes, I said, I want a little girl. That's what it's like. Your husband offers you a prize, to get pregnant. In the meantime you are a housewife like you were raised to be.

I met this woman, it was a school thing for my sons, my little girl was still little. She was a lawyer for a firm downtown and she was in town to see her sister. We talked and she whispered and asked me if I wanted to be naughty, she found me attractive. She wanted to suck on my milking titties. Try baby milk. God four babies, how did you do it? Your vagina must be so wide you can drive an aircraft into it. And this was a woman, who had her issues, but I wanted to be naughty and I let her suck milk out of my titties and stick her tongue down between my legs. I enjoyed it, it was the one time in my life I was naughty and I had never had sex like that. I actually had an orgasm, my first real brought on orgasm from sex. When she laid her breasts in my face and told me I liked that, she was right, I liked that.

But once is enough, I have to be a housewife and mother and I have a family and I have my reputation and I have a daughter and I have to just remember sometimes, when I can spend a few minutes alone in bed and play with myself. It was nice having a woman suck on my titties and suck milk out of them and stick her tongue in my vagina and clip my clit and make me come. It was nice, but I'm a housewife, that is what I was born to be and that is how I was raised and I suppose that is how I am going to raise my daughter and teach my sons to be men like their father. I would die if any of my sons were gay or weak or were scared of using their dicks. I want them to fuck girls, I want a man like my husband for my daughter. And I guess that is my confession.