After We Married

Looking back I feel guilt for what I did. At time I charge myself with the memory from my cheating. My husband and I had been married for a time and our friends would come to our apartment to hang out. Most weren’t married yet but some were coupled with future spouses. Our apartment was small and the kitchen had a opening to the living through a small bar. I had gotten up to gat some ice when a friend with a body to dream about came into the small kitchen area where I was. He hugged me from behind. He squeezed my breast with one hand and slid his other hand in my shorts and quietly asked me when was I going to have sex with him. My husband is the only guy I had ever been with. I didn’t break away immediately but didn’t answer him. I had never had to play off any other guy before. If anyone had tried to notice, I was glowing when I returned to the group. After the friends left I had sex with my husband probably the most aggressive I ever had. For about a month this guy would get a feel or rub of me whenever he could. I know now I was behaving in an inviting manner. The guy told me his parents would be out of town and told me to meet him after we got off work. My husband gets home from work after 7 so I had time to meet him. I met the guy and we had fabulous sex. Wow was it good. I would meet him different places sometimes 3 times a week. He knew how to use my body for our pleasure. My birth control failed and I gave birth to a daughter which I’m sure my lover fathered. We continued our affair and I got pregnant again but luckily It was fathered by my husband. With two children life got busy so I ended the affair. My lover tried for years to get with me again but to end the affair I knew I had to remove out of it completely.I had a hard time breaking away and was depressed for some time. I had learned the cheating lifestyle and recognized my sister-in-law was cheating on my brother. I counciled her through her breakup with her lover. I really enjoyed at my young age a lot of sex but my husband has been great and deserved a totally committed wife which I have been many years.