Born Straight But Got Bent

I still love women. I have since puberty. I was born straight and I still feel that way, overall. The awkward thing is, when it comes to raw sexual arousal, something that I thought was impossible has happened to me.

Somewhere in my 20s, I suddenly thought it would be naughty fun to jack off to gay porn. The images revolted me, and I was unable to even imagine how a penis was supposed to be sexy, but I guess it was a masochistic thing. And I was right, it did turn out to be naughty fun. Way too much fun, because I kept doing it. Even though I was disgusted with myself afterward, every time, and always swore I'd never do it again.

After a little while, I wasn't just stroking, I was cumming. And I wasn't just looking at naked men while I did it, I was imagining being with them. I still didn't find them attractive, but I guess I liked their dicks well enough to enjoy looking at them, and to kinda want to feel them...in my hand, in my mouth, in my...

I liked their muscles too. I'm a slender guy with a slender dick (slightly above average length, in case you're getting hot while you read this). At first I just admired and envied the built guys and their magnificent, thick cocks. But after dozens of homoerotic orgasms, enviable had turned into appealing, and was slowly turning into arousing. I knew it, I felt the change in myself. I'd been blind before: now I could see that cocks were really beautiful...and honestly, way sexier than pussy, or even tits. I mean, what says hot sex more than a great big erect cock?

These new feelings of mine embarrassed me. I would have been mortified to have been caught surfing gay porn, or to have been noticed with a budding softie and a wandering eye in the pool showers. But another part of me was excited to be a cock-loving fag boi.

There's no going back now, it seems. I've tried. But once you open Pandora's gay desire box, you find that you don't really want to put everything back in.

I still love women. It's just that sometimes (ok, most of the time), I have to fantasize about men if I want to get hard for a woman, or to cum inside her. But no big deal. It actually lets me control exactly when I cum, so I can pleasure her as long as she wants. If I start to get soft, I just think about guys for a bit. That way, we fuck and enjoy ourselves until she's done, and then I just imagine a young, hung bodybuilder plowing my ass while I suck his brother off, and boom! My cock erupts in seconds.