I Confessed Almost Cheating

I have been married 16 years with two grade school sons. The lifestyle of a young busy family can get anyone to a place we don’t need to be in. I work close with another married man. He has a great family. We work constantly on work task. We turn out work probably twice as much as expected. He is a tech and I’m the IT person for his work. No doubt I had been in an emotional connection for years with him. One day I went to get house paint I came across my coworker. I started talking and he helped me with paint decisions. We went outside and walked into a display portable building. We kissed a while and he was pulling my nipples. He started rubbing between my legs and put his hand inside a leg of my shorts. I was about to have a total orgasm when a young family opened the door to view the display building. We walked out. We made plans to meet after we took home what our shopping purpose was. I gave the purchase to my husband. I went and took a quick shower and dressed different and told my husband I was going to shop some more. I noticed as I was walking out my husband playing with our sons and all were so happy. I drove about 5 minutes and stopped and cried 30 minutes. I texted my coworker and told him I wasn’t meeting him and this would never happen. I cried probably 30 minutes more and returned home. My husband noticed something was disturbing me so he followed me to the bedroom and asked why I was upset. We always have totally honest so I told him every detail and even showed him my text message to my coworker. He had replied by this time apologizing and said this will never get this close again. My husband was upset. We did as normal and went to bed. We had sex until after midnight. He put hickies on my neck like a teenager. I had hickies on my breast and inside my legs. As days past he would want me to go over details again and then he would screw me hard. He would have me put on the same clothes and we would act out the event before sex. For a time I thought it was him making me feel quilty but soon realized he was getting off on this. We had sex more times the last six months than we have had the last ten years. I tell him sometimes to let’s skip a day so and I can recovery. I do talk on the phone constantly with my coworker about work task while with my husband and if no kids he pulls my nipples and rubs between my legs. I wonder how he would have reacted if I had had full sex with my coworker. I mentioned I would get another job but my husband really wants me to stay. Me and my coworker apologized with each other and knew we didn’t want the result of most affairs. He does squeeze my butt sometimes and I haven’t told my husband about this. I can be thankful I didn’t lose my family with an affair.