My First Internation W A Male

He was my dads friend. He put hid hand on my pussy while he was giving me a ride. I wiggled im discomfort but i started getting set. I came home and rubbed my pussy do hard filled w shame. Im a whore now and i want to contact him to finally fill hid desires. He traumatised me back then but i want to give him the cheap slut he wanted. I want to lift up my skirt and Show him my hairy pussy and ill start begging. Im wet grom just talking about it. I want him to slide hid glans over my clit and to ejaculate wherever he wishes and ill rub myself for him and if he puts his hand over my pussy like back then ill roleplay for him and pre myself. I have to do it i cant control my urges