Decided To Try It Again

If you haven't read my past confessions, I'll summarize it really quick: I have been wanting to try and suck cock for a long period of my life. I never got the opportunity until after I got into an incredible relationship with the girl I'm with right now. Sniffies gave me the chance for a quick, discreet blowjob with people. And I took up that opportunity. That confession of my first real cock was at the start of August. It's mid September now, and I may be getting that craving again. After my first one in August, I decided to give it another go, since my first time wasn't as amazing as I thought. But the 2nd time? That one was much better. I'm verbal and love hearing how good I'm doing. The other guy I got with let me suck at my own pace, and let me call him "daddy." I never knew I wanted that at the time. But I felt so dirty. I wish I let him cum on my face, but I didn't. He wanted to suck me off before he came over. Honestly, I love giving blowjobs than receiving them (with the exception of my gf, idk what it is but hers always feel sooooooo good). I should add that I didn't feel anything different from last time. I felt better, sure. But that buzz went away fast. So, now here I stand with the option to go 1 more round. Find someone who will cum all over my face or on my tongue, and get this last bit of desire out of me. Should I go for it? Or should I just let it be a fantasy.