Gay Male / 19
I Have A Disgusting Kink And I Hate It
If you have a weak stomach, you might not want to keep reading.
My horrible secret is that I really love scat. If you aren't familiar with that, it's poo play. I like to incorporate feces into my sexual activity.
I'm not into diarrhea, and I also don't like constipated poos. But I absolutely love firm, smooth, solid logs, and softer semi-solid coils.
Most scat fetishists (or "coprophiles") are only into watching their partner take a dump or having their chest shat on. But I'm not like those people. Unfortunately, I have the most extreme version of the kink. Yes, I'm one of the rare few who actually likes to eat it, and I've eaten my own shit since I was 14.
The most arousing thing I can think of is eating a nice log. I do find vanilla sex physically pleasurable, but it doesn't turn me on the way scat eating does. My porn folder exclusively contains pictures of turds and mens' buttholes mid-poop.
Sometimes when I get hungry, I instinctively think of poo first.
I'm not proud of any of this. My obsession with scat has seriously damaged my self-esteem. I'm kind of disgusted with what I am.
I can't date anyone who doesn't have a scat kink themselves (or is at least supportive of it). I'm also always worried that people will find out I love poop. If everyone knew about the things I just confessed to, my life would be ruined.
I never acted on these thoughts, and I'm in a better place now, but in my teens I wished I were never born because of my extreme taste for scat. Every time I caught myself fantasizing about eating poo, I felt so gross and filthy. And I thought about it constantly, I never got a break from my urges.
I wish I could cure myself. I don't want to be a turd eater, I just want to feel normal. But I've accepted that I'm most likely going to be this way for the rest of my life. I've lost the energy to fight it. All I can do is work on becoming comfortable with it.
My horrible secret is that I really love scat. If you aren't familiar with that, it's poo play. I like to incorporate feces into my sexual activity.
I'm not into diarrhea, and I also don't like constipated poos. But I absolutely love firm, smooth, solid logs, and softer semi-solid coils.
Most scat fetishists (or "coprophiles") are only into watching their partner take a dump or having their chest shat on. But I'm not like those people. Unfortunately, I have the most extreme version of the kink. Yes, I'm one of the rare few who actually likes to eat it, and I've eaten my own shit since I was 14.
The most arousing thing I can think of is eating a nice log. I do find vanilla sex physically pleasurable, but it doesn't turn me on the way scat eating does. My porn folder exclusively contains pictures of turds and mens' buttholes mid-poop.
Sometimes when I get hungry, I instinctively think of poo first.
I'm not proud of any of this. My obsession with scat has seriously damaged my self-esteem. I'm kind of disgusted with what I am.
I can't date anyone who doesn't have a scat kink themselves (or is at least supportive of it). I'm also always worried that people will find out I love poop. If everyone knew about the things I just confessed to, my life would be ruined.
I never acted on these thoughts, and I'm in a better place now, but in my teens I wished I were never born because of my extreme taste for scat. Every time I caught myself fantasizing about eating poo, I felt so gross and filthy. And I thought about it constantly, I never got a break from my urges.
I wish I could cure myself. I don't want to be a turd eater, I just want to feel normal. But I've accepted that I'm most likely going to be this way for the rest of my life. I've lost the energy to fight it. All I can do is work on becoming comfortable with it.
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