I Am An Attention Whore

I am in a strange time in my life where i crave male attention and I'll pretty much flirt with anyone who gives me attention.

I am getting close to 30 and that is freaking me out. Not to mention I had my first baby in 2020 in the middle of covid and now my husband is giving me less attention and treats me less as his sex kitten (my old pet man) and more like a mother to his kid. I know my shape shifted some but now i have to pursue him for sex. I know this is shallow but I feel really hurt and myself esteem is breaking.

That said, I am nerdy girl cute and have nice curves. I am short 5'4 but after pregnancy I have 34 triple D boobs and on my short frame everyone notices (except my husband). Guys are flirting with me like crazy, i am getting cat called again, hit on, and even have guys ask me out at the mall or when at a coffee shop despite the fact I have my ring on and even sometimes have a baby and stroller. Fuck I love it. I not only let them, I will crave it, go out dolled up looking for it, and will let them "shoot there shot," and lead them on, tease them and lather up all the attention. It gives me such validation and I know that i have turned into an attention whore. I mean it, i'll let any guy, regardless of age or looks hit on me, flatter me, and flirt. I just want to be seen like that. If you take the time to comment on my body or looks, I am taking the time to talk to you and soak it all in ...

I have not done more the talk. I have not cheated, well not yet. But if i am being honest, if a guy was super cute or hot, and had good game, and said the right things about my body I might be down down for a one time link ... especially if he was younger and hot. I'd want that validation that I am still worth it. I did give one guy my number a younger guy in college who worked the food court but that just turned into sexting. He needed to see my boobies lol (and he did).

All this male attention has me so fucking horny. I often lock myself in the bathroom with a long hot bath and my pink vibe and fantasy about all the guys who hit on me. I think of there names, faces, lines, and orgasm so so so good! It's getting to the point that fantasizing about them with my vibe is much better than really fucking my increasingly lame husband who barely notices me any more.

I work for a security guard company in the office and there are a lot of older ex-cops or ex-military guys, who are very masculine and bold. I have encouraged them and let things get out of hand and they say completely inappropriate thing openly and out loud about my boobs that would be sex harassment any place else but i just blush for them, nod, and tell them jokingly "You can look... but respect the ring."
Recently a supervisor shot his shot with me when we were alone. He is older and not someone i'd fuck but it was still hot that he was turned on by me enough to try for it. He literally put his hand on my ass and said, "If I didn't know Nick (my husband) I know exactly how to get you promoted to head office." Honestly, I am not into this guy at all, but the balls it took to do this made me so fucking wet, I almost gave in. I still can't believe my response, but i was so fucking turned on i just blurted it, looking him in the eye and not stopping him from moving from cupping my ass to my breast, "And I want you to know, I am the kind of girl who would. Fuck Nick, i'd bed you for a promotion. But we are not going to do it because I know Debbie (his wife) and everyone would know how i got promoted." I sat him down in his chair, undid my top, and showed him my boobs (still in my bra but spilling over) and said, "This is all you get. It is just to show you i want you to think about me. But I this is all you see, and we never talk about it again, when your done here go home and fuck Deb and think of me, I'll be blushing when i see you in the morning."

I don't want to fuck my boss or anyone at my work, they are all closer to my dads age and its. too easy to get caught. But I want attention, all the attention I can get. And I do think I am getting really close to cheating. I think i want to do a random hook up just to prove to myself hot guys my age or younger still want me for that. I don't want an affair just the validation that I am still seen as good hook up material.

I know, I m terrible right? lol