I'm A Baby Lesbian With Training Wheels, And A Total Dick Virgin

Circumstances put me in this position, 27 and still a virgin. First, I had a real nice boyfriend in high school, but we did not go all the way. Halfway through the 11th grade my family moved to Florida. I was out of the loop there and I didn't identify the Floridians (I was raised in Idaho).

I go to college, fall for this guy, we are great friends, we hang out together but frankly never date. I tied pushing the door open, wore some less than flattering clothes, talked openly about sex. Nothing, Nada. I don't date anyone else, we were an item on campus. Then in the last semester of our senior year he comes out and tells me he's gay. That I'm the best friend he has and he 'loves', but sex is not what turns him on. He had cheated on me several times with a couple of guys that I also knew.

I leave school, move all the way to Texas, try out a new life. It's busy, people from everywhere, many Hispanics and Blacks. I didn't realize how much I was turned off by them in real life. I work at a manufacturing company and get promoted rapidly a couple of positions and within a year I'm a Senior Analyst. I start to deal with the upper management types, and learn pretty quick it's an old boys network. I had gotten as far as I would go, so I took a job with a competitor. Same thing, old boy's network. Except much more open about it. One manager tells me that his experience in the Army taught him one thing, don't trust women.

I try for my third job, except COVID hits, at least I'm not laid off. But I have to take a 15% pay cut. And working from home sucks, I have a roommate, she's a nurse for a pain doctor, so she works at the clinic, I have to drag out and set up my stuff, and close it down and put it away at the end of the day, she doesn't want the dining or living room looking like an office. When would I possibly have a time to date. Things between me and my roommate are getting tense, and she comes to my room and says I should sleep with her, just bite the bullet and sleep with her. She doesn't want another night listening to me toss and turn when she can be holding me and helping me get rid of my stress. After all she is a nurse.

I asked her point blank, 'don't tell me your a lesbian'. She doesn't admit to it but she does restate she wants me to sleep with her, I needed to be loved and she wanted to love me. My first sexual experience turns out to be with a woman. And it's intense, she is putting me under her wing and needs to kiss me and 'mount' me. The bed is torn apart, the clothes all over the floor, she triggers several orgasms for me and puts my thumb on her clit and my tongue in her pussy and she goes off the charts yelling that she loves me.

Laying there on my back I realize that I'm never going back to my bed. She is a lesbian and she's going to make me a lesbian too. I'm 27, not once has a male touched my boobs, my ass or my crotch, not once have I had a penis in my face, not once have I had a male's finger or a penis in my vagina. All I have is a knock down love session with my roommate. If I'm not being groomed to be gay, then what it is it?

There's nothing but kisses and hugs and more kisses and more hugs. Heart emojis. I love you texts and so, so glad that we are both in love. Did I tell her I loved her? She stops at the cup cake factory and brings me a red velvet cup cake with I Love You on it. Whatever repressed feeling she's had are exploding. I can't bring myself to tell her that I don't think I'm lesbian. So I spend the rest of the working from home period playing house with her, washing her panties by hand.

I'm back in the office with the misogynist management, I keep my mouth shut because if I mention anything I play into their hand. I have to talk, walk the man dating scene. All of it made up. I go home and my roommate listens to me and says that I can stay home, and look for another job. She has enough savings to cover the rent until I find work, When you love someone you support them, with whatever they need to do. Right? Yes, right, I typed up my resignation and let her read it and I told her I love her too. I hope I'm not lying.

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by Anonymous on Nov 9, 2022 at 11:10 AM

I love you. The three most misused words in the English language. It's nice being loved. But so many times we confuse passion with love. She very well may love you. Or she's simply loving sex with you. You on the other hand are falling into the she said she loves me so I SAY I love you back.

Only you know how you really feel. And you might be confused. It's not a bad thing to live and be loved whether it's with her or some guy. But love from a guy would be a bit different because men and women are wired differently. Some men are actually capable of giving a lot of love. But then again lots are just trying to get laid.

Wishing you the best.

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by Anonymous on Nov 10, 2022 at 5:24 AM

It's easy. Who's apartment is it? If it's in your name ,tell her f off. Stop putting your stuff away. Get an easier job, pay cut. No need to live high class if your alone, plus your young enough to recover later in life.
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