Something Else

So my confession might be long but at a young age I started exploring my own body. My advantage was that my mom traveled for work and she had sex toys. Some as small as a finger some larger. So before I found them I have fingered myself. It never really hurt I took it real slow. And by the time I have hit teens I have already moved from a small toy to an average sized toy and never had bleeding or pain. And sometimes I was rough. I guess I have in some way taken my own virginity with no pain or bleeding. I did not just want to have sex with a boy because I wanted a boy who cares and takes it slow. So my early teens I started sneaking out of my room at night with my friends. We would drink and fool around with boys. I never had any sexual fooling but my friends did. But one night I got home and took a shower. I got into bed wearing only a shirt and a thong. I loved wearing thongs and my mother never had any problems. Anyway my little brother he is a few years younger than me and I have caught him masturbating before. Just laughed about it as I was curious at an early age as well. But that night I heard him come in. I was not drunk but had a few drinks. And I felt him pull down my covers. Not sure why but I just made like I was sleeping.
I felt him touch my ass and feel me up. He pulled my shirt up slowly and at this point he thought I was drunk and passed out. He moved my thong aside and rubbed my anus and it felt amazing. I turned over on my back acting like I was sleeping. He again pulled my thong one side and he started feeling my pussy. And as I just wanted to open my eyes he spread my legs and I felt him lay over me. And then I felt his penis pressing against my vagina. I slightly opened my legs and allowed him to push all the way into me slowly. He started moving and I must admit I had 2 orgasms and moaned. He just thought I was drunk. When he orgasmed he got up and left me like that. So he was my 1st and yeah I should have stopped it but did not. A few more stuff happened between us and my luck he did not start ejaculating until later in his teens lol.