What Is It? Why? Bad Wrong Feels Good No Yes Maybe

I am married and have never had sex with a girl and don't think about it. But after reading lesbian stories all these crazy nasty sexy ideas of what I could do to or have done to me by another girl started flowing through my mind and juices started flowing out my love hole. I am thinking of too much with too many different girls I know. Why is this happening? Good bye its time to stop edging and go for the O.