My Boyfriend May Dump Me For This

My boyfriend and I have always been really kinky, we've done just about everything including threesomes with both women and men. I recently did something that may have crossed the line, though.

We were in my absolute favorite arrangement, an MMF threesome with my man fucking me from behind while the other man fucks my mouth. We'd been going at it real good for a few minutes, when the guy in front cums in my mouth without warning. I don't know exactly why I did what I did next. I don't know if it was the surprise, or just how unbelievably turned on and "dick drunk" I was at the moment, but I decided to pay the surprise forward.

I turned around, pushed my boyfriend to his back and aggressively made out with him- with my mouth still full of the other man's cum. Not knowing the surprise that was in store, he eagerly accepted my kiss. I stuck my tongue straight in his mouth, and with it, all of that hot cum poured in. It took a second before he realized what was happening. I purposely had gotten on top of him so he couldn't pull away. He gagged and seemed shocked for a second, but I kept my mouth firmly latched to his and continued to sloppily French kiss him until he had swallowed most of it. I licked up the remainder that had been smeared on his face.

He's been extremely upset with me since then, saying it's the worst thing any girl's ever done to him, and is unsure about continuing the relationship.

But here's the thing. Though he won't admit, it turned him on as much as me. Despite his initial shocked reaction, I could feel how into it he was. He reciprocated the kiss the whole time. We were BOTH moaning and swirling our tongues in each other's mouths, even after he knew full well what I'd done. And when I grabbed his dick it was hard as stone and literally throbbing.

Looking back, I can understand how a guy could feel disrespected, or even humiliated, by his woman doing this to him. I've tried apologizing, I just don't understand why it's so upsetting if it's something we both clearly enjoyed? We've always been kinky and spontaneous like that, and it's always been for the best. I can understand feeling a little disgusted after the fact, but in that moment, we both know it was amazing. I guess I understand how uncomfortable it can be for a guy to admit he liked something like that. I just hope he comes to his senses soon and realizes I didn't mean anything by it. I was just super into the moment and wanted to share that with him. I certainly don't see him as less of a man or whatever he may think. Hopefully worst case scenario, he'll just sleep with another woman or two to help himself feel "macho" again and then get over it.