My Day Dream Wank Off

I am F and not my real age but the age my life and dreams the dream goes like this , I came this morning. and tried again but enjoyed just being his pussy open for his pleasure in the end. I orgasmed first and was so horny I scratched my vagina walls and the skin is a bit sore down there and around the vulva etc so when he wanted to try me down on the ground in water of the jet of the showers I was glad in a way and just let him do as much as he wanted for half an hour on me and did what he wanted a laid still till he came. he seemed to tormented with himself as if he was not cheating on a lover having been out of a rel-or sit uationship for a while, so he moaned a lot, lite grunts of pleasure came out of his mouth and I enjoyed it having already cum . sometimes when i masturbate I want to come again and again. more then a few times even. its so different to r**e when you actually love them and are willingly giving your pussy out of love rather then just bullcrap lies. I hope I don't sound boring but I was a bit tied all day on meds and nearly finished them so its like every time I roll oer I feel like I have morning sickness or in a boat anyway. and just trying to cope with that as well as being menopausal maybe.