From Scared And Mousy, To Open And Wild

College was both difficult and uncomfortable. I didn't make friends, I was scared of my courses. My escape was being alone. During my senior year I met Alicia, and she pushed me into having lesbian sex with her. My first intimate relationship. I was mostly embarrassed and self conscious. And frankly confused.

I left college and returned home, got a job working front desk at a Hilton downtown. A 'girl', who worked cashier on the same shift, older in her late twenties, got my top off and I told her about my one college experience. We 'dated' and I moved out of my parents' house to live with her, in an intimate relationship. I had accepted my orientation and thought I had met true love. Just like we got started it ended and I returned, broken hearted, to my parents and quit my job.

A man I knew from growing up offered me money to have sex with me. He caught me at the right time and I agreed. The most money I'd made for San hour of work. I became an online 'girlfriend' date for older men. In the first year I made more than my mother, tax free too. I turned 24, with a BMW, money in the bank, and a client list.

I quit cold turkey when I turned 29. I bought a house, got a job working for a W2. I'm currently dating Eileen, she doesn't know about my 'consulting' business. I'm no longer uncomfortable with intimate behavior, and I can give as well as receive.