Straight Female / 23
Cheated On My Boyfreind But He Wasn't Mad And Would Take Me Back
My boyfriend and I had been living together for two years when I started cheating. I never cheated on him before. It wasn't a planned thing, just a heat of the minute afternoon quickie, I thought. But this guy kept calling and I kept meeting him. I was infatuated I guess. I sat down ten times to tell my boyfriend, but I confess I never did. I didn't do a lot to hide it though. Maybe I wanted to be confronted, I'm not sure. I'd get dressed up and say I was going out with the girls. When my phone rang and it was my lover, I took the call in another room. I left and came home at all hours and didn't offer an explanation. I got my hair styled and started wearing make up and nicer clothes a lot more often. I started rebuffing my boyfriend, and making him use a rubber when we did have sex.
None of this caused my boyfriend to be suspicious or angry which was strange. He's usually very intuitive and could figure me out even when I didn't want to be. I couldn't tell him and I couldn't stop cheating. Finally, one day a few weeks ago I took the day off work and moved out while he was at work. I didn't go to my lover's, I moved into one of my parents' empty apartments. I wanted to clear my head and figure things out.
Late that afternoon my boyfriend called as I knew he would. I told him everything, from the start to finish. I told him nothing was his fault, I just lost my way somewhere. I was ready for a lot of anger and rage, but he said he knew what I'd been doing. I was stunned, because my boyfriend wasn't the type to be passive if he knew what was going on. He said we had both been in a rut. He said my "new life" excited him, and I shouldn't feel bad and I shouldn't have moved out. I hung up, just too weird to deal with.
He kept calling and I started answering the phone. We talk everyday now, and he's trying to get me to move back in. He said I could still go out if I wanted. I'm tempted. I miss him, and we had a lot together, it's just the erotic side of things ran dry. I'm still seeing my lover, but that's getting dry too. I don't know what I'll end up doing.
None of this caused my boyfriend to be suspicious or angry which was strange. He's usually very intuitive and could figure me out even when I didn't want to be. I couldn't tell him and I couldn't stop cheating. Finally, one day a few weeks ago I took the day off work and moved out while he was at work. I didn't go to my lover's, I moved into one of my parents' empty apartments. I wanted to clear my head and figure things out.
Late that afternoon my boyfriend called as I knew he would. I told him everything, from the start to finish. I told him nothing was his fault, I just lost my way somewhere. I was ready for a lot of anger and rage, but he said he knew what I'd been doing. I was stunned, because my boyfriend wasn't the type to be passive if he knew what was going on. He said we had both been in a rut. He said my "new life" excited him, and I shouldn't feel bad and I shouldn't have moved out. I hung up, just too weird to deal with.
He kept calling and I started answering the phone. We talk everyday now, and he's trying to get me to move back in. He said I could still go out if I wanted. I'm tempted. I miss him, and we had a lot together, it's just the erotic side of things ran dry. I'm still seeing my lover, but that's getting dry too. I don't know what I'll end up doing.
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