Where Are All The Sexual Sadists?

I've been looking for years for a real single or multiple sex-sadist(s) willing to keep me in my neoprene bondage-bag, face-fucking me constantly, and having to swallow everything...you'd think such unrestricted access to a tireless tongue and mouth would attract SOMEONE...video-record it, harvest cum and pre-cum for profit, rent me out, I don't care...I'd even PAY for the use and abuse of anyone 18 or over, any gender, weight, appearance, race, or appetites...I did experience a regular arrangement, with an older group of modern-day "Hellfire Club" devotees, which lasted for multiple weekends, during which I must have swallowed quarts of cum, and suffered merciless orgasm denial, while fed blue tablets to maintain my unmet need...they say change is good, but I really miss all the happy memories that remain from this, and would instantly 'sign up' for anything similar...there must be someone somewhere...