Deep Jump Into Becoming A Grown Up

What would you do? We are at a club, my coworker, older and divorced, puts his hands under my arms and holds me with his hands on my chest. I can't get away, he won't release me unless I agree to giving him what he wants. Caught, in a noisy dark club, I agree on the condition he withdraws and doesn't come in me. When it's time, he has me immobilized and fully penetrated he tells me it was time for me to gamble my future and he comes in me.

Pregnant, 24, unable to support myself completely I face the most excruciating decision of my life. Terminate my pregnancy? Or? Stay single, get married which is his solution, move back in with my parents. My parents convince me to return home. I'm lonely there, the whole thing about missing him I keep to myself, I grow my baby belly, until faced with the inevitable I give birth to a baby girl. It's love at first sight.

Now the dislocation hits me, still supported by my parents, a mother myself, I tell the father to come get me and the baby. Any life where I am the adult is better. My parents disagree, friends warn me that I'm jumping out of the frying pan into the fire, from being under my parent's thumb to being under his. Yes, but my house, I can be a wife and I can be a mother.

There are no good answers. I will not accept the argument that I had an unwanted pregnancy, I would not have my daughter. I will and can return to work but right now I'm going to grow my family. I miss the social world of work, but I'm making friends in the Mom world. One decision leads to another.