Bi-Sexual Male / 33
Female Supremacy
I was friends with a woman years ago. We went to high school together. We were really good friends. She was the alpha in the relationship and I was beta. This woman was a 10 out of 10 beauty. She was friendly, intelligent, funny, had lots of friends and had this sixth sense about her where it seemed like she knew everything that was going on in my head and in my thoughts.
Even though we were just friends, it was a totally female led relationship. She was a woman who knew her own Queendom . A lot of people even called her Queen. When we would go to the shopping mall together I would be holding her bags and purse as we went into stores. I'd be holding her things sitting outside the fitting rooms as she would come out and ask me what I thought of her outfits. The other girls who worked there would just smile at me. It was so obvious that my friend was the dominant one in the relationship. I loved how she always let me serve her whether it was in public or when it was just the two of us. I never wanted to date her, I just wanted to serve her. When she would go away for a weekend she would ask me to sit the house and her cat for her.
A few years into our friendship I grew jealous of how confident she was in her femininity, and how she owned her female supremacy and Goddess energy. She had more friends than me, was smarter than me, was super model gorgeous, was loved by everyone and I basically envied everything about her. I rebelled against it and started to judge her. I even gave her the silent treatment a few times. She was upset one night about something and instead of honoring her space and just being a good friend to her, I pushed her and pushed her to talk more even though she said she didn't want to talk. She left crying.
A week or so later we talked for the last time. I was so pigheaded by my male ego that I wouldn't relent. She said she was expecting to see an apology note from me slipped under her door after our last talk. I lost it and said we can't be friends anymore.
It was the worst mistake I ever made. She was the best supportive friend I've ever had in my life. It's been a few years now but I'm thinking of writing her the apology note she actually should have got from me when our friendship ended. I've taken courses in female supremacy over the last couple of years and now know what I knew back then, but just wasn't brave enough to embrace my true submissiveness in honor of acknowledging female supremacy. Truth is, I was mean, calloused and rude to her. I didn't treat her with respect, dignity or any of the support that she always showed me as a friend. I do take full responsibility and ownership of the ending of our friendship, and I hate that jealousy and bitterness got the better of me. I don't know if she'll forgive me or not, and I'm fine if she doesn't even reply. I just want her to know how sorry I am for treating her so badly.
I think she'll take my email, screenshot it and put it all over social media. Which is fine. I probably deserve worse. She's been the best influence on my life and I often think of the many lessons she taught me that still impact me today. She'll always be a Queen to me, and I'll serve her from afar if we don't end up ever speaking again.
Even though we were just friends, it was a totally female led relationship. She was a woman who knew her own Queendom . A lot of people even called her Queen. When we would go to the shopping mall together I would be holding her bags and purse as we went into stores. I'd be holding her things sitting outside the fitting rooms as she would come out and ask me what I thought of her outfits. The other girls who worked there would just smile at me. It was so obvious that my friend was the dominant one in the relationship. I loved how she always let me serve her whether it was in public or when it was just the two of us. I never wanted to date her, I just wanted to serve her. When she would go away for a weekend she would ask me to sit the house and her cat for her.
A few years into our friendship I grew jealous of how confident she was in her femininity, and how she owned her female supremacy and Goddess energy. She had more friends than me, was smarter than me, was super model gorgeous, was loved by everyone and I basically envied everything about her. I rebelled against it and started to judge her. I even gave her the silent treatment a few times. She was upset one night about something and instead of honoring her space and just being a good friend to her, I pushed her and pushed her to talk more even though she said she didn't want to talk. She left crying.
A week or so later we talked for the last time. I was so pigheaded by my male ego that I wouldn't relent. She said she was expecting to see an apology note from me slipped under her door after our last talk. I lost it and said we can't be friends anymore.
It was the worst mistake I ever made. She was the best supportive friend I've ever had in my life. It's been a few years now but I'm thinking of writing her the apology note she actually should have got from me when our friendship ended. I've taken courses in female supremacy over the last couple of years and now know what I knew back then, but just wasn't brave enough to embrace my true submissiveness in honor of acknowledging female supremacy. Truth is, I was mean, calloused and rude to her. I didn't treat her with respect, dignity or any of the support that she always showed me as a friend. I do take full responsibility and ownership of the ending of our friendship, and I hate that jealousy and bitterness got the better of me. I don't know if she'll forgive me or not, and I'm fine if she doesn't even reply. I just want her to know how sorry I am for treating her so badly.
I think she'll take my email, screenshot it and put it all over social media. Which is fine. I probably deserve worse. She's been the best influence on my life and I often think of the many lessons she taught me that still impact me today. She'll always be a Queen to me, and I'll serve her from afar if we don't end up ever speaking again.
