I want to talk about my love life. Most that know me would think ive never
been in love but see nobody knows that i've been in love before and im in love
right now. But see every single one that i've loved never loved me the same way.
So of course i've had heart ache and i know damn well how it feels to be heart broken. Cuz i've cried so much for them and it sucks to know that it will never
happen between us. If ******* would of been in my life a couple years ago god knows
i would have been soo depressed and thoughts of suicide would be running through
my mind all day. But i thank god for being more in life and i have cut out any real
thought of suicide i might ever have. Its just not worth it, if the person you love
doesnt love you back i wan't you to hold on because all it takes is time for
you to move on. I know its happend to me plenty of times. I've learned that love really
does make you do things you never thought you would do. It controls your mind
and everything you do. Its so crazy but it seems like love is only pain. You have
one moment of happiness but 10 moments of sadness come with it. Im beginning
to think that it's just not worth it anymore. i still love ******* . I think * knows it
i thought * used to love me too. But that has changed i can just tell. Its sad
how i cant get you outta my system. Every sad love song that comes on i think
of you and it seems to fit so perfectly with our situation. But i know im just
fantisizing cuz WE never really happend. I wish we would of though. It would
have been an experience i would forever cherish. But i guess i didn't deserve you
I hate how i think of you all day, at school i cant stand but to wonder what your
doing. I always look your way i can't be comfortable not knowing were you are.
AM i obsessed??? i think i am but i can't help it. I think your beautiful and i
love you. I wish you felt the same. Even though you always tell me you love me
i know you don't mean it like i do. I just don't get why i can't stay mad at you
though. You always leave me so lonely. You never want to hang out you always
lie to me and never call back. Fuck that hurts you have no idea. But im trying so
hard to get over you even though i don't want to. All i ever wanted was to have
someone to love and to love me back, and i thought that would be you but it
wasn't and now i have to move on but its hard my heart wont let me fall back.
I think i will always love you ******* but i ask god to give me the strength to move on.
If i could tell you I would pick out all of these lyrics
to tell you how i feel about you and what you do to me.

*Im here without you baby, but your still on my lonely mind. I think about you
baby, and i dream about you all the time. Im here without you baby. but your
still with me in my dreams.
*Tears from eyes worn, cold and sad. Pick me up now i need you so bad.
*Your vows of silence fall all over. The look in your eyes makes me crazy.
I feel the darkness break upon her. I'll take you over if you let me.
* Want to but i can't help it. I love the way you feel. Just kinda stuck between
my fantasy and what is real. And its all because of you.
*My girls in, the next room, sometimes i wish she was You. I guess we never really
moved on.
* I love you. I loved you all along. And i miss you. Been far away for far to long.
I keep dreaming, you'll be with me and you'll never know, stop breathin if i don't
see you anymore.
*On my knees ill ask , last chance for one last dance. Cuz with you i withstand
All the will to hold your hand. I give it all i give for us. Give anything but i won't
give up.
*I wanted. I wanted you to stay. Cuz i needed. I need to hear you say.
"i love you. I loved you all along." And i forgive you. For being away for far to long.
"So keep breathing. Cuz im not leaving you anymore. Believe it hold on to me never
let me go."
*All of these lines across my face. Tell you a story of who i am. So many stories of
where i've been. And how i got to where ive been. But these stories don't mean
anything. When you got no one, to tell them too its true. I was made for you.
*I've given everything. I loved you endlessly but when it comes to me you dont even
notice me.
*For a long time i was in love. Not only in love, i was obsessed. With a friendship that
no one else could touch. It didn't work out, im covered in shells. And all i wanted was a
simple thing, a simple kind of life.
* You can tell your lies, I don't really care what you feel inside. All you ever did was
make me cry. Maybe one day you'll realize, That you had a good girl in you life.
*All alone on a sunday morning. Outside i see the rain is falling.
Inside im slowly dying. But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying.
And you, don't you know my tears will burn the pillow. Set this place on fire cuz im
tired of your lies. All i needed was a simple hello. But the traffic was so noisy that you
could not hear me cry. I. I gave you my love in vain. My body never knew such pleasure.
My heart never knew such pain. And you . You leave me so confused. Now im all cried out.
Over you.
* We only said goodbye with words. I died a hundred times. YOu go back to *** and i go
back to black.
*When im with somebody all i think bout is you. When im all alone its all i wana do.
With the smiley faces on my side kick. All the time we spent together its so hard to
get you outta my system. You don't know what you do to me. You don't even understand. damn
Its so hard to get you outta my system.
* Your still running through my mind when i know that you shouldn't be.Me im on you mind, and
im knowing that it couldn't be.
*Unbreak my heart. say you love me again. don't leave me hear with this pain. Come and kiss
this pain away.
*Never look back they said. How was i to know, i'd miss you so. Lonelyness up ahead,
emptyness behind were do i go??

It just kills me to know that im going to die without you beside me.