Once You Have Had Cock...

When I was a teenager and drunk a slightly older guy sucked me off and rode my cock until I came. Then on and off over the years between marriages I was getting head from men.
Of course the day came I ended up being the cocksucker. I lived in SoCal and was walking in a neighborhood downtown area and a man propositioned me. He said he lived just a short walk from where we were and I should come over for some fun. My girlfriend at the time had been not too interested in sex so I thought what the heck, I'll get a much needed BJ.
We get to his place and he said, get naked and follow me. We go up to his bedroom and we are standing in front of a full length mirror. He hets naked and I see a really big cock, 9" cut , very thick, big balls, shaved. I am standing there looking at his dick and thinking I may suck cock today. He tells me to get on my knees and I did. He steps forward so that big dick is in my face and tells me to suck. It was so hot that first taste of cock. He was verbal, told me to look in the mirror so I could see me sucking his cock. Fully hard he was so thick his cock head stretched my lips. I found myself really liking this. It was hot him telling me I was a good cocksucker. He made me say I wanted his cum, he pulled out, jerked off and shot a big load into my mouth and on my face. After that I was sucking cock occasionally.
Years later I had a threesome with two guys, I did not intend for it to go as far as it did but they were aggressive (and fun). I ended up being fucked for the first time, cock in both ends and a load in my mouth and ass.
I was married again and stayed faithful. I actually decided to be celibate for years. Now remarried to a great woman, sex is good, life is good but I find myself wanting cock again.
I guess once a cock sucker always a cock sucker. I'll stay true to my wife but I must admit, I want to suck a big cock while taking it from behind.