Sissy Cock Sucker.

I am a married male who has become a sissy. Not just any sissy.... A sissy cock sucker. My wife does not know. I have been a sissy cock sucker for years. I feel this is my calling and love sucking other cocks. I have had dates with other sissies in which we preform sex on each other.
I know this is not right to do it behind her back. We don't have sex anymore and I only play with cocks. Manly Men and Sissies. I know if I tell her we will be in a divorce, and I could not ever recover from such a blow.
I do think she knows of my cross dressing but credit to her honor has only hinted at it. I do not even get aroused by females anymore. Only cocks arrows me any nore..