Where Have All The Sexual Sadists Gone?

I have tried about everything, to contact one or more sexual sadists who would enjoy confining me in my expensive rubber bondage-bag, and using either or both ends of me, mercilessly, while making use of my nice house, and my $100 a day debit card limit...icing on the cake would be the desire to torment me with extreme orgasm delay and denial, until I'm going out of my mind with the need to cum...my only "limitation" would be actual traumatic wounding, in any form...mental agony, and wicked breath-control torment would be a plus though....