I saw him yesterday. It was the first time since January..when I saw him, my heart felt like it was about to explode. I was in love with that boy and he really hurt me..but I want him still.
He asked me to come over so I did and we talked openly and honestly. At least, I did. I WANT to believe the things he told me, but I'm scared.

He told me that he was sorry for treating me the way he did. He said that I deserved better and that he only acted the way he did because he had feelings for me and it scared him. He even asked if he could take me on a real date sometime..and we ended up having sex even though we both agreed that we wouldnt.
I dont know why I feel this way about him. I guess I really was in love with him, I guess I still am.

I'm scared. I dont want to get hurt again, but it's inevitable.