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Obsessions
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Lesbian Female / 34
Given To Him As An Offering, He Is Now And Forever My Lord And Master
I went to visit my best friend over Spring break. She told me that she had a Papito and he owned her. I was shocked, she was very independent girl. You don't understand, she told me.
After graduation I went to work at a construction company. The accounting manager was a lesbian woman in her thirties. She told me her boss was a 'bull'. Little did I know I would be her offering to please him. She invited me to spend the weekend with her at a 'friend's' beach house. I wanted to go, I thought I could get to know her. I had more than a casual interest, I took the job because of her.
The night turned dark when her boss showed up. He took over immediately and she fell into line. He took his hand and held my head and kissed me. I stood back and tried to slap him. He grabbed my wrist and forced me to stand still. She stepped in and told me to be nice to him.
She 'bathed' me for him. She laid out the bed on which he would 'have' me. She sat gently on the bed beside my head and held my hand. The 'bull' took me, until I was no longer free of a man's touch. I now belonged to him although I didn't know it.
How can it be, I asked myself, that a man can come along and take not only my body but also my 'self'. But like her, he did, and I became another 'girl' on his belt. For years, not months or days, I worshipped him. His wish, his desire, was for me to please. And I pleased him.
Years later I met a girl, Gabbi, and I fell deeply in love. I never forgot how I had been given to him, so I kept my love a secret. I suffered from guilt and anxiety. I didn't dare let her meet him. Overcome with guilt I confessed my secret love affair. He listened, and put his hand on my head, did I now belong to her? he asked. I said I did.
He 'gave' me away to her, with a lecture that I would never leave him.
His words were prophetic, I cannot escape him. It hurts that he no longer holds me. I will never not be his, even as I've given myself to my lover. He will always be my Lord and Master.
After graduation I went to work at a construction company. The accounting manager was a lesbian woman in her thirties. She told me her boss was a 'bull'. Little did I know I would be her offering to please him. She invited me to spend the weekend with her at a 'friend's' beach house. I wanted to go, I thought I could get to know her. I had more than a casual interest, I took the job because of her.
The night turned dark when her boss showed up. He took over immediately and she fell into line. He took his hand and held my head and kissed me. I stood back and tried to slap him. He grabbed my wrist and forced me to stand still. She stepped in and told me to be nice to him.
She 'bathed' me for him. She laid out the bed on which he would 'have' me. She sat gently on the bed beside my head and held my hand. The 'bull' took me, until I was no longer free of a man's touch. I now belonged to him although I didn't know it.
How can it be, I asked myself, that a man can come along and take not only my body but also my 'self'. But like her, he did, and I became another 'girl' on his belt. For years, not months or days, I worshipped him. His wish, his desire, was for me to please. And I pleased him.
Years later I met a girl, Gabbi, and I fell deeply in love. I never forgot how I had been given to him, so I kept my love a secret. I suffered from guilt and anxiety. I didn't dare let her meet him. Overcome with guilt I confessed my secret love affair. He listened, and put his hand on my head, did I now belong to her? he asked. I said I did.
He 'gave' me away to her, with a lecture that I would never leave him.
His words were prophetic, I cannot escape him. It hurts that he no longer holds me. I will never not be his, even as I've given myself to my lover. He will always be my Lord and Master.
