What Is Wrong With Me

I mostly straight , meaning that when I was a young man tramping across the country I got tricked into letting a guy suck my cock ,they used alcohol and weed . Okay after the first time I should have been able to figure it out but I didn’t.
Now that I’m older I get bi curious at times I think about the first time a guy sucked my cock I don’t know if I was passed out or just blacked out when he started sucking me but when I realized that someone was giving me a bj I had my arm wrapped around him and was moaning , yes he was that good I freaked out and left before I came .
I think about stroking another man receiving a bj ,frottage and maybe even giving a bj but here’s the kick I want to suck a guy with a woman watching