Small Dick False Revenge And True Hope

Hi,
First time on here, so bare with me. This confession takes place during high school and present day. During high school I began to fool around with this tomboy she was really pretty and also really into sports. Given her dedication to sports, in came her gorgeous figure and plump ass. I always liked how she was and enjoyed her company but never had a sexual desire towards her. That is until she began to play with her hair color, she went from a really short cheek high blonde haircut to dark long curly extensions that would reach her ass. That..... for some reason hit a cord with me and I began my move. We began texting and began to hang around each other more in social environments. One night we ended up in a park just making out and just getting a hand full of that ass while I dry humped her to hell. We then would spend our weekends together at night from 11 pm to 4 am playing the same movie over and over while we made out. As time goes, we both knew where this was leading too. She invited me to her room which was across her parents room upstairs, we went. We then put on the same movie that we played for weeks now, it was finally happening. It wasn't my first time having sex and it was not her first time either, we got undressed and began kissing sensually and getting comfortable on the bed. So hot, so passionate, hands full of that juicy ass. She reaches down.....we both look down....... I'm not hard. I need to add the fact that I am for sure by far a GROWER and not a show'er by any means. Looking back I can point out many things that could have caused this situation. 1. The room was really hot. 2. I could've interpreted the parents being so close as intimidation vs amping up the sexiness. 3. She did not have extensions that night. So vividly I remember the words coming out of her mouth, " aww, now I'm dry as a grandma" My ego was obviously hurt and I could not perform. Sucked ass. So many things going through my head such as," this is why I never liked messing with girls form my school. Now she's going to tell everyone" and she did...... But not before we stopped and got dressed then sat and stared at her computer screen as she showed me dick pics that guys had sent hurt in the past. One stands out till this day because I had seen the guy at the local gym plenty of times. About 5'4 athletic build, long hair, and a dick that reached his knee. It was fucking crazy, it was at least 9 inch soft, but the thickness is what left the impression in my head, always curious how it would've looked in real life. So the weekend passes, I'm dreading monday, nothing happens, nothing is said between her and I about the situation. The weekend comes, I don't go out. My friends give me a call later that night asking me why this girl is talking shit and saying that my dick is small. I try to play it off playfully and say that she couldn't get me hard so I couldn't show her my size. This marked me during high school, I'm glad it happened during senior year but 5 more months is a lot fore a teenager. I then began to date outside of my school and would just have sex with multiple women just so I could feel some sort of reassurance that I can perform. I also had sex with one of her close friends after high school but it was not intentional, but I made sure I laid down the pipe. This story is called false revenge but now I am married and recently had my wife suck my dick and she had measuring tape within her reach. I told her to pull it out and measure my dick. My wife has asked me before how big my dick is and I always said 6 inches, knowing it was 5.5 inch. The look on my wifes face when she saw 7 inches, got my dick so fucking hard. She went to town on her newly discovered 7 incher that night and every night forward from then on. I secretly think at times of this high school girl and wish I could include her with my wife and fuck her good while my wife and I make her head turn and we both devour that ...ass. My wife and I are super stoked on this discovery, it does wonders for my confidence. I measure my dick now for fun, make sure you keep track on growth! Mine must have changed around aged 23. Thank you for reading.