I’m Glad I Cheated

last year i was in an abusive relationship with a man, and i didn’t realize i had been abused until very recently. while i was with him, though, i was constantly online with men much older than me, sexting, sending pics, and meeting up for hookups. one guy said while fucking me that he was gonna take my phone and send a video to my boyfriend, and i panicked and begged him not to. part of me wished he had because my boyfriend could never please me the way this guy did. i mean this guy knew how to please a guy. never came so much in my entire life. while at a school dance, i ended up making out with somebody else in front of my boyfriend. he broke up with me a few weeks later, and part of me felt horrible that i lost him, but another part of me felt so free. any chance i had for a hookup i would take, especially at parties when my ex would see me leaving. i think this whole time i just wanted to make him jealous. i mean, i talked about getting fucked any time he was around knowing that he wasn’t getting any dick OR pussy. he never found out about the guys i fucked while with him, he only know about the person i made out with in front of him. but i have so many videos of me getting fucked in the ass that i just wish i could send to him randomly one day