Have Sex A Lot, Never Cum

I'm not searching for "the man". I have given up on that. I'm not a total slut though I started sex when I was 16 and have had 15 different guys for sex. I've sucked to completion in my mouth or on my face, anywhere else he wants to cum. I've had regular sex and anal sex often. I can cum like man when it's my hand but guys have never gotten me to cum. I used to just lay there or suck till they finished. Then some guys would get made or hurt that they couldn't make me cum so now I fake it for them. Guys think I'm blazing hot in the sack and in reality I'd rather they just fuck me and cum as soon as they can. When they leave, or if they stay I go into the bath and rub myself. I even tried it with a girl once and nothing their either and I had to force myself to lick her off, I really didn't like the taste. I hate it when guys pull out of my vagina and stick it in my mouth too, but I let them.

I was with one guy for over a year and he accepted that I didn't cum, didn't want any faking or false moaning or noises or anything. In front of one of his friends one time he told me to strip and let the other guy take me into the spare bedroom and do whatever he wanted. He whispered that I was NOT to fake it at all, just lay there and take it. That was repeated with that guy often as well as two others. I guess they got off on a girl just there for them to use. I did almost cum once when he spanked me first with his hand then his belt. I was so tingly and warm but he saw the marks on me and stopped before it happened. I wanted to ask for it again but it was summer and bikini season and couldn't explain the marks.

I fuck and suck and buttfuck but I never cum.