My Mom Had Sex With A Random Man In My Room

Yesterday i was looking through some of my childhood pictures through a hard drive on my laptop. Between photos of myself there were photos of my mother in my room licking a man’s ass (The photo was dated to 2013, i was 8 at the time). I (absolutely horrified and shaking) continued to look through the pictures. The man was on my bed on his back legs spread, my mothers face between his ass cheeks.. There were also pictures with him naked in high heels on in my bed and my mother naked in my bed, as well as her licking a woman’s pussy. I am shaking again as i’m typing this. I ignored her until an hour ago when i confronted her about what i found. She claimed multiple times that this is a completely normal thing to do and i yelled at her, that i don’t care what she does but how disgusting it was for her to do it in my bed. I don’t know what to do or what do think and would really appreciate advice on how to move forward. My mother “bragged” multiple times to me growing up about with how many people she had sex with, while i was with my father (They’re divorced). I don’t have any family besides her. My father physically abused me through age 3-11, which my mother knew. I cut contact with him at 11 against my mom’s wish because he tried to cut my throat and his. He said “I want to die, so i don’t have to be your father anymore.” in German, which i’ll probably remember for the rest if my life. I cut contact with my mothers family, as they emotionally abused me as well. As you can see i don’t have anyone in my life. While i wrote this i noticed it sounded fake, i promise it is 100% true. As i’ve said i would really appreciate advice on what to do. Thank you
(Sorry if there’re grammatical mistakes, english isn’t my first language)

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 4, 2023 at 6:05 AM

I'm so sorry.

What a horrible experience.

Its a wonder you're still standing.

You're still young. Hoping you can find someone to love and who loves you. Hope you can have some sort of normalcy in your life and put this history behind you.

Your English was great - better than many of the native English writers on here.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 4, 2023 at 12:19 PM

Take a deep breathe and slowly exhale, calm yourself, go slowly.
Don't confront your mom about this, you spoke and you know her standing on the subject.
She's entitled to a sex life, you may not approve but it's a decade ago.
If mom is a stable and you can live there without conflict , continue.
Get an education or a decent job before you leave out of frustration.
Do everything you need while you can before leaving.
If it helps, talk to someone you trust about it, or write your thoughts out. But do not just internalize this and over think it, that is not good for you at all.
This will pass, everything does.....take care of yourself first!

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 4, 2023 at 10:41 PM

Your English is fine enough to convey your feelings.
You have only your mother now till you become completely independent.Don't bother about her personal life and carry on calmly till you complete education ,find a stable job and become independent after which you can move out.
No wonder your parents split.Both were worthless.
Don't let anything mar your happiness( difficult but possible).
It's difficult to live alone in this world but don't fall prey to any sweet talker who will exploit the situation and abuse you even sexually.
Consider this as life's message to you and build life rationally.
I find it very difficult to advise you about approaching any seemingly helpful person or institution but do not divulge these details to anyone as there are wolves and vultures lying in wait.

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