The Hook Ups

I have been friends with Leila since 5th grade. We went to the same high school and now we are about to finish up high school. She was a very very pretty girl in grade school, and between 7th and 8th grades she really started maturing. She had C cup tits by 8th grade and developed a very nicely shaped body, and her face was even more stunning than before. We lived next door to one another and always walked to and from school together, talked on weekends. She is my major life crush, no doubt. In high school she got taller, thinner, and even more beautiful. Working out her hard body, she was a cheerleader and fucked the jocks. She'd use me to vent at her jock boyfriends. I knew she was fucking, I think I was the first person she told. We had just started our second year in high school and a senior football jock popped her cherry. She talked to me like I was a girlfriend of hers, she left nothing out of the description. She admitted she'd been giving him blowjobs since the summer before school.

I was so shy I couldn't even ask her out. I knew by senior year she'd been fucked by 8 different guys. We were going to the same college so I thought it would be a chance to get her alone and to myself. She went for it all, the summer before college her parents took her to Europe and left her for a month with one of her cousins in France. She had been fucked by 6 french guys over there, the one she really liked was married and in his late 30's. In the meantime I'd finally gotten a BJ from a girl and that was all.

In our second year she and I were sitting in her dorm room and she mentioned she was terribly horny. She actually asked if I'd fuck her. It had been 3 weeks since she'd gotten any and that was too long for her. Before I'd agree to take my long time crush and have sex I told her I didn't think I'd be any good as I'd never done it. She got even more nuts about it and said that it was high time I had sex. So that day and night we had sex 4 times and she said I was really getting the hang of it. She showed me how to lick and eat pussy, how to not maul a girls tits, just to super lightly stroke them, and other things. I was totally in love and the next morning we did it one more time, she came a few times, I spilled into her again and she was done. I mean done having sex with me.

She said she just wanted a hook up not to be in love. She said she thought love was for suckers, just a way for a woman to put herself under control of a man. I tried every argument but to no avail. I stopped because I didn't want her to dump me out of her life for good. Then she reverted to her norm and was dating and fucking guys. She made sure to introduce me to girls to fuck as well. She told me I was too shy and she started conversations in bars, coffee shops etc. I was getting fucked by some super attractive women, some actually even more beautiful than her.

Finally in our third year she and I were sharing an apartment, which we still do, and during the time she was having her period she said she got super horny then, but guys didn't want to fuck her during her period, just stick it up her ass or mouth. I asked what the different was and she asked if I'd do it during a girls period. I hadn't but said I would. What followed was 4 days of what I call, silky sex. Her pussy felt like silk or satin on my cock when inside her while she was bleeding. We put a towel down below us, and had another ready to clean us up after. It was heaven for me. One time we did it the morning after her period was over, then it was over for us and she was having guys spend the night in her room with her again The next month her period comes and I'm cumming inside her again. That stayed that way until even now.

I fuck other women during the month, and I fuck her exclusively during her period. The thing is I really want to tell her I love her and want to be her man, her boyfriend, her husband, her anything. But I know it would ruin what we have. I think in a way I'm closer to her than anyone else she knows, but I hate hearing her getting banged by some other guy, coming out to the kitchen in a robe or just her panties for a glass of water knowing she has a guys sperm inside her pussy dripping into her panties. I want more than just what we've done since high school - Hook Ups.