Ok I have a friend named Ben. and he has a girlfriend named Jen(she is very beautiful, blonde, thin, nice body). they have been going out on and off for about 3-3 1/2 yrs. They've been through a lot. They both cheated on each other (and still do, it's a strange relationship). Anywho one night we all got drunk and what not and went back to Bens house to get un drunk. Well i drank too much and needed to boot. So i stepped outside, booted and kinda leaned on the house. Jen comes outside (wearing only a sweater and a thong) and asks if i'm ok. I managed some kind of positive reasuring sound. And we chatted for a bit before going back inside. We sat at the table and talked some more, nothing permiscus(sp?) just normal chat. Then she just takes my hand and holds it, rubs it etc. I was kinda shocked, but also half unconsious. I didn't act on anything. just chalked it up to drunkdom and fell asleep.

That night came and went and so did many more. No more hand games occured until we were waiting in Bens car for...something, i don't remember. But anyways we started the hand game again, just touching, and rubbing and holding. anyways the point here is that she's always getting close to me. Sitting near me, making sure her thigh and legs touch mine. Jumping on my back and having me give her "rides". The hand games, etc. Like just the other day, we went to see X2 and i purposely didn't sit next to her because i knew she'd try something in the theatre.

I consider her a good friend. A very sexy friend. If she wasn't with Ben i'd definatly try to get her to be mine. But she's with Ben. Ben has been my friend for 10 yrs. i am NOT gonna screw up thier 3 yrs relationship. I won't. I Can't. I Refuse. But jesus god in heaven she is soo fine and wonderful. Agh! no, i musn't be tempted.
I'm doing the right thing here...right?