I Ruined Everything

My husband and I got married at 19 years old. We had gotten pregnant. My husband became a house painter. I finished college with an accounting degree. We had a son after I started working 5 years younger than his sister. My husband was so good and committed to me and our family. When our son started college the empty nest syndrome hit me. My husband was making a good living running a group of painters. I was an accountant in headquarters of a large store chain. A good looking guy younger than me had started flirting with me. I became obsessed with him. I openly kept offering myself to him. I quit giving my husband a wife connection. I was all out trying to get my coworker to have sex with me. He finally agreed to have sex with me after end of the year company appreciation party. Understand my coworker was very good looking, tall, and in great shape. I bought a suggestive party dress and wished I lost about 20 pounds but I felt attractive. At the party we hung out, drank, and danced. We were groping each other innocently. I found out later someone called my husband and told him he better come get me before something happened. I was actually feeling coworkers hard prick when my husband pulled me away. Drunk and angry he showed up I scratched my husbands face and started hitting him. My coworker thought he was attacking me and blind side hit him and we both started kicking my husband on the floor and my co worker really doing damage to my husband. Men got us restrained and shortly police arrested us for public disturbance. I was taken for interrogation and told my charges where changed to attempted m****r. I was shown a videos someone recorded with me kicking him in the face and his abdomen. My coworker was stomping his face and abdomen. I was told my husband was in the hospital with severe concussion, broken ribs, crushed jawbone, and other broken bones. I couldn’t believe what we had done to the love of my life. My family finally made bail and I was released. I went straight to the hospital 4 days after we did this to him. I went to icu waiting room where my daughter attacked me. My son got her off me and order me to leave. I refused and my son then slapped me hard. Security arrived and I was arrested again. Restraining order prevented me to be anywhere near my husband. My husband did recover. After several surgeries he had his jaw restructured but never could talk normal. Of course he filed divorce. My coworker and I went to trial in court. We pleaded guilty but were given jail time for our protection of revenge by family. Due to the serious injuries to my husband I was given 5 years and my coworker 10 years for being so brutal. I got out in 18 months and no one came to pick me up when released. My parents reluctantly got me going again then kicked me out. I went to my daughters home to show regret. She came out and picked up a brick to hit me but her husband restrained her. I called my son and he said not to call him again and hung up. My husband was back working and really doing well for himself. I got a job at a accounting office. I worked long hours and save my money. My husband received big insurance settlements for the night we attacked him. My coworker was released after 5 years. He called me to pick him up which I did. I hoped to finally have a relationship with him since my family abandoned me. He was a shell of the man I knew. I took him to his parents and he told me to leave that I had ruined his life enough.

One day I went out to eat alone. I was surprised when my ex husband came and sat down at the table with me. I cried and after settling down we talked. He told me he was doing ok and hoped I was doing good. His talking different made me cry more. I asked if he had anyone. He said he alternates two college girls most weekends for a price. Other than that he had no plans to ever remarry. I shared I never had sex with my coworker but would have that night. I admitted I was just as guilty as going all the way. I told him I didn’t know what came over me to even lose he mind for this guy. I told him I never wished hurt on him and didn’t realize what we were doing. I told him he was a great husband and needs to meet someone and give them that privilege. I told him I made a will and wrote to split my money with our children. He said he tried to get our son and daughter to have a relationship me. He said it doesn’t look favourable. He talked about our grand kids.

The visit with my husband helped me. I have sworn myself to be an old maid and never seek physical pleasure. This is the only way I can punish myself for the poor decisions I made. After the visit I got unblocked by my son and daughter on social media. I look everyday to see what is new. My parents finally took me back and I help them with duties. Please everyone look at the results before making poor decisions.