My Used Backdoor

I am so embarrassed by my butthole. I'm divorced, 5ft. 7in, 115lbs, keep in really good shape, nice legs, nice ass - very firm, B cup boobs with pouting nips. I've been divorced for 9 months now, and went on a few dates with a guy lately. I was so embarrassed though, when we were about to have sex, I was lying on my stomach kissing him, and as he sat up to re-position himself he practically yelled out. "DAMN what the hell? Your asshole must have been overused or something, shit!" I explained that it wasn't always like that my ex, loved anal sex. He was the only one who had anal with me, and only the second to have oral or vaginal sex with me. He immediately stuck an unlubed finger up my ass and said that it was too loose for him. I explained that my ex had a big cock and he used my ass almost everyday. So it went from a normal pucker to what it was now. It was 10 years together from 17 to 27 of getting anal from him all the time. He said I was the only girl who could take his big one up the backdoor.

He got dressed, I went into the bathroom and was crying. He left and I finally came out. I took two mirrors and positioned them so I could see it. I know what it's like but I wanted to see it anyway. My anus is a large, distended, puffy ring, to be honest it's almost the size of my outer lips. It's big, it's disgusting. I feel like I'll never get another man to have sex with me. IF I get that close again, I'm definitely turning off the lights.

It was so embarrassing to have that happen, and I'm embarrassed that I let my ex have that much anal sex with me. It was too much, even my mother and sisters said so when we'd talk about thing. Now I'm paying the price, all for giving the man in my life what he wanted.