Two Different Needs

I discovered sex at seventeen and have been active ever since. Whilst I’m consistent I who I am I do have a split need best summed up by saying my pussy wants a guy who loves me, who takes care of its needs regularly and who frankly turns it on. My c**t however sometimes gets hungry and just wants to be pounded and used.
It’s not that I want to be fucked in different ways it’s that my c**t wants different cock and to be treated like a slut.
I have boyfriends who have enjoyed the difference and others who have not understood and therefore left.
My current boyfriend of just over a year doesn’t know. I meant to tell him several times but I actually do love him and are scared to lose him. He’s talking about the future and marriage but my c**t has currently four different guys attending to its deep ache and I don’t know I could be truly faithful. I need to tell him but it’s hard.