Discovering My Other Side With M4M Sex

The shutdown during covid caused me to lose my job. Although we got severance and unemployment, the loss of a job at my age was permanent. I slowly fell into depression and insomnia. I got out of bed and went to the computer at three in the morning. Reading at first articles that were boring, I soon got into chasing down porn. I suppose that the forbidden is the most attractive and I fairly quickly started to enjoy gay porn. At first pictures, then videos. I jerked off and imagined myself in my dreams as participating. My wife, oblivious, she was a 'first' responder being a nurse so she was working.

During one of my sessions I found a chat room. And I found out that I could 'act' out my fantasies. One man suggested we video chat. At first I set the camera so that my face wasn't visible, but after a while I said what the hell and I went 'live' watching men masturbate and I masturbated with them. What I wanted was the real thing. I wanted to get naked, to feel the body of a man, to feel his hard erect penis, to suck him, and I was quite willing to let him use me, I wanted to be fucked. I met that man one early morning, we got more and more personal and discovered that we lived within driving distance. We agreed to meet, clandestinely.

We met at a motel half way between us, a bit under an hour drive. He took the room and texted me the room number. I got there and he was there in the living flesh. Shorter than I expected, heavier than I expected. He wanted to kiss immediately, get on with business. The kissing was unexpected but after a second or two I let him. We undressed quickly, until were were completely naked, his dick was hard and demanding. I jerked him off and he came on me. He took his finger and fed some of his cum to me. We languished in bed naked, talking and waiting for his revival. In the meantime he played with my dick, and kissed with me,

When he was again able, his dick was harder than the first time and not so prone to cum, I sucked him for a while and I let him finger me. It felt good to have his finger in my ass, better than I expected. He knew what he was doing massaging my prostate and my precum leaked out, which he licked off and shared some with us kissing. While this was my first time, it was no where near his first and I let him completely guide me. By the time it came to surrender or go home, I surrendered to him completely. As I had imagined I enjoyed having his dick deep in me. He came, and I came into the sheets. He stayed on my back for a short moment, which felt good beyond description, being pinned down by him.

We showered and played some more with our dicks and lot of kissing under the hot water. I bent over with my hands against the wall of the shower and he gave me a quickie. For a man his age I was surprised as to how fast he recovered. He later confessed that he charged himself up with two V!agras. Lesson for next time. A long seductive kiss and we agreed to meet again, same time same place, I paid for the next room.

It's been a while now since covid, but we meet regularly. I can't wait for our sessions together. My wife works and we adjust our meeting for when she is on shift. She says I'm a lot more pleasant, unemployed but pleasant. I'm not lonely.