Never Meant For This To Happen

I have a strange relationship with my ex husband. We married right out of high school had 2 girls right off the bat and we struggled. He worked odd jobs I worked as a clerk. We did what we could to get by. He always had a wondering eye and would act on it sometimes. Women would confront me sometimes and I would just ask the ex to choose. Them or me and he would say me. I’m small at 5 foot tall 130 lbs. I have a thick bottom and nice boobs. I work out a lot to take out aggressions and keep fit. I do get hit on a lot but never actually acted on it. Flirted yes but never went that far. Fast forward 20 years my 2 girls are out of the house. I’m left with my husband who we argue constantly making it impossible to be happy. It was a random Wednesday morning my husband who own started his own business struggles because he can’t control his spending had been in a mood that morning and I grabbed my stuff me said I’m leaving see you tonight. I didn’t even let him finish what he was yelling about when i walked out. I work out at a small gym close to my house that has a big tennis and swim program. The free weights are in a smaller room so for the most part it’s always empty or maybe 1 or 2 people stretching out or working out. That particular morning there was a guy working out. I noticed he had ear buds and hadn’t noticed I was in there. I started to stretch he noticed me smiling aid good morning and that was it. I had my back to a mirror that covered the back wall. In later found out that he was checking me out specifically my ass which was in point view since he was doing legs and was facing my direction. We made eye contact again and I do t know why but I started a conversation with him. I noticed that he looked directly into my eyes when he spoke to me. He stood up extending his hand introduced himself to me. He towered over my 5 foot frame and I instantly melted like puddy in his hands. He wasn’t flirting at all or hitting on me. He was tall muscular great hair a gorgeous smile big broad shoulders. Till this day o do t know why but we had an instant connection. I have never in my entire life ever had that feeling. I wanted him to take me right her and then. I really flirted with him and he back. He asked for my number and I took his phone called my phone and made sure that he saved my number. At home I was happy ex was still always mad I felt alive. I found out that morning that he was there working out because he his dad had recently passed and needed to blow off steam. After that morning my schedule was synchronized to his. We met for coffee drinks dinner lunch. The most we had done was some serious kissing and his hands wondering around my boobs. My hands on his crotch. I felt how thick his cock was and I had a huge wet spot in my panties. I made the first move and started to take my pants off. We where in his jeep and he asked me if i was sure that was what i wanted. Looking me in the eyes while asked me this I told him yes OH FUCK yes. We where face to face I was in my thong in the back of his jeep mounted on him face to face when he moved my thong which was soaked. I felt his head penetrate me and we looked at each other face to face. He stared into my eyes as it he put that monster into me. I had to force myself down on it because of how big and thick it was. I watched me as I went up and down and after a bit he told me he was going to cum and I picked up the pace and told him I was getting ready to cum. It was the first time ever that I had cum and my partner had cum at the same time. After the first time I knew and told him that I belonged to him. I don’t know why I said that but I told him he could have me when ever however he wanted. I had given myself to him to do whatever he wanted. We fucked a lot after that. I mean a lot. I had keys to his house he would come home from work and I’d be there in panties and a thong. I messed up and would ignored my now ex husband. I was never around stopped any sexual contact with him. Not even a kiss. He tried to make me feel bad but I didn’t care. He accused me of cheating I denied it. I though I would feel bad but I never did. I thought about all the times he did and did not care. I was happy and now it was my time to be happy. I saw my bf for almost 2 years when I got caught. My ex got a hold of my phone and I had not deleted some messages and the ones he read had been a short video clip of a porn that I had been watching and the text read get me the same color ruby plug as this girl. Ira cute and will she’ll me get use to having my ass stretched. He went wild and kicked me out. I left and went to my bfs house. I didn’t have many clothes there which didn’t matter since I was fucked senseless for days. I even lost sense of what day it was. He wanted a divorce is what he came at me with via text. I responded the sooner the better. My oldest told me mom he is gorgeous. I said yes he is and is mine. I was leaking