In A Lesbian Relationship I Keep Wondering If I Should Try With A Man

Various things have gotten in the way of me forming a lasting relationship. I grew up and my family broke up. I went to college at a local state institution, only to find out that my degree wasn't respected, I had to go all over again to upgrade my degree. I moved for a job right out of college and was transferred six months later. I started working out and I am now an amateur body builder. I found out that I get hit on by women at the gym but hardly ever by men.

I want a meaningful relationship, not a series of one night stands. To be honest I have tried sex with another woman, one of the women who is obsessed with me. My one time with male was in high school and it was a big disappointment so I never tried again.

Do I just give up and submit to her desire to be with me or do I keep trying to meet the right man? For now, I'm sex hungry all the time, so I'm her sex buddy and her girl on the arm. She's a bit of a dominant or butch type, but not really. She has very feminine attributes as well, she has no desire to be a man. I could never get close to someone that confused. When we go out I insist she girl herself up, I like pretty, I don't like steroids or hormone girls at all.

It doesn't escape me that I'm probably in love with her.