Porn Melted My Brain

I became obsessed with porn at around 11 or 12. By the time I was 17 i was so incredibly frustrated with how little sex I was getting, I opted to try meeting men just to get some sort of satisfaction.

For the next 9 years, I continued dating women, obsessively watching porn, and hooking up with men on the side to satisfy my sexual needs thar weren't being met by girlfriends that couldn't keep up. I was ashamed about the gay encounters because I wasn't attracted to men.

I won't get into the how, but eventually I came to the conclusion that I was incredibly jealous of the attention that attractive women get. I wanted to be the women in the porn I watched, being lusted after. Now I'm 3 years into hormone therapy. My new obsession, beyond porn is becoming as girly as I can, so no one will ever question if I'm a woman, at least until my clothes come off because I'm not getting surgery. Based on the number of guys that hit on me, I think I'm doing a good job. I'm still not really attracted to men, but I love so much the feeling of being pursued that I have sex with men very often. Life is confusing.