Struggling Between Religious Beliefs, Family, I Cheat On My Husband

As a lifelong Christian I renewed my commitment to Christ the summer before college. In college I agreed to tutor a girl, who complained of her roommates' multiple boyfriends. I sympathized with her objection to boyfriends in the apartment. While sitting on the couch one afternoon she asked me to tell her if her breasts were feminine, she thought they were too masculine. Topless on my couch, her breasts exposed, very feminine breasts, with very prominent nipples. Nervous I touched her breasts, she held my face in her bosom.

I had crossed over, with our clothes left behind on the floor of the living room, my roommate found us in bed the next morning. My conflict between my religious principles and my love for her haunted me through the rest of college. After college I ran into a marriage with a boy I grew up with. As quickly as I could I added four kids to our family.

But, my college girlfriend moved close to me, not 'jealous' of my husband and family, she sought out a clandestine relationship. Being a home based housewife allowed me time that I didn't have to account for. And a continuation of our college love affair.

My religious vows, my husband and family, nothing keeps me from my girlfriend. I'm an adulteress with another woman.