Should I Tell Her?

My best friend Emily has been with her fiance Seb since we were all at university together. After these years, she's still head over heels in love with him. He's handsome, athletic, smart and successful, and to look at them, you'd think they had the perfect relationship. That's why I don’t think she has any idea that he spent the best part of a year fucking me behind her back when we were students.

It was the worst betrayal of a friend but at the time I was young and reckless and got off on being bad, so I found the whole thing incredibly hot. We had to sneak around to avoid being caught and we did it everywhere. In the library, in my car, in club toilets, in a hot tub on a ski trip... even in her bed when she was out at lectures. I was his little whore and the sex was great.

It ended years ago of course. I've grown up now, though I'm not sure he has. It’s clear from the way he looks at me sometimes that he's thinking about all the dirty things we did together. As their wedding approaches, I'm finding myself wondering more and more if I should tell her. I know it would break her heart but is the truth better than marrying a man she doesn’t really know? I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if I wasn't the only woman he'd cheated on her with. He's too charming for his own good.

There's another part of me that fantasises about asking him if he'd be up for one last night of naughty fun before getting married. I don't think he'd turn me down but I'm not sure my conscience could take the guilt these days.