Wanting Sex With Men Again

I am a very straight acting masculine man muscular build outdoors type love to hunt and fish. Happily married for years. I find myself wanting sex with men once again.
In my younger years. I had sex with my friends often. I let my best friend fuck me when we were in the 5th grade he and I sucked each other off all the time for a long time then I let him fuck me and once he came in my ass I was hooked and let him and a few other boys fuck me for years.
Now I am older and not much sex at home these days I find myself wanting to find a man a lot like myself that might like to fish and hunt with me and just hang out at my cabin drinking beer talking having fun and having sex together.
I watch gay and bi porn often and mature gay men is something I can relate to. I can very excited watching older men like myself getting fucked up the ass with a big fat uncut dick. I imagine myself naked outdoors bent over the tailgate of my truck getting fucked very hard by a mature man with a big fat long uncut dick and taking his cum up my ass.
I imagine myself on my knees outdoors naked sucking on a big fat uncut dick and a man sucking my dick and my nuts touching his chin when I cum in his mouth. I want to taste his cum also hang out naked and give my buddy complete access to my ass and him fucking me often. Both of us sucking each other off but mostly I want to take his big cock up my ass as often as I can.
I dream of being fucked so much I can hardly walk and cum dripping off my nuts with a big fat mature dick fucking my asshole. I would like to get some up one morning with this big fat dick going up my ass.
I fuck myself often these days with dildos and other things and taking something up my ass just feels so damn good I really want a hung mature man to fuck me hard and get derp in my ass talk dirty to me and slap my ass while he is fucking me and empty his big nuts deep in my asshole. I want it so bad I would consider being his submissive slut and let him use me how ever he wants as long as he will fuck me and use me and cum in me. If has been my ultimate fantasy for a few years now to meet a mature man with a really big hard dick. I want it to be very thick big mushroom head that stretches my hole and the longer the cock the better. I like it deep and I have taken some very long dildos in the past and I like it deep and thick too.
I would also enjoy being watched when I am fucking myself with my toys and sucking a big hard dick while I ride a big rubber cock and have him cum all over me. I like the idea of getting jacked off on and warm cum shot all over my ass then a hard cock shoved up my ass really hard
I get pretty hot thinking about getting my ass fucked and used while I am tied down. I can just imagine being tied down and helpless with a big cock being forced up my asshole and to get fucked hard and not be able to move just lay there and take it until my ass is filled with warm cum
I have had this crazy wild fantasy if being gang fucked by a group of hung mature men while I am tied up bent k er a table with my feet wide apart and my wrists tied to the other end of the table while 6 or 8 hung mature men line up to fuck me and cum setting my ass then leave me tied up with cum pouring out of my used asshole.
But what I would enjoy most is a mature man like myself with a big fat cock that wants to fuck me and enjoy using my ass any way he wants. Every time I go out to my hunting cabin I imagine myself naked bent over the bar taking a big hard cock yo my ass with cum running down both my legs. If things got really hot I imagine myself taking big hard cock in my mouth and up my ass and being tied up and r**ed by a huge cock.
Maybe some day I will find that guy I can be friends with and be his private sex toy and let him enjoy using me for his pleasure. I really want to do this with the right man.