Obsessed With Female Led Relationship

My relationships with guys have always sucked. I'm always accused of being bossy and controlling: it's true, I can't help it. From a young age I always wanted to be the leader in everything. Every relationship devolves into a contest of wills. Another handicap is that I always go for a certain type: beautiful, delicate features, long hair, hotter than me.

I recently discovered the concept of female led relationships and I am so turned on by it. I had almost given up and resigned myself to being alone and focusing on my career, but now I have hope again. I can't stop thinking about a relationship with a super hot guy where I'm the one in charge, I take the lead an make the decisions, I'm the smart one, the provider. I'm the keeper, he is the kept man. I'm the one with the career, he keeps house and kids. I'm the one who deserves and gets all the orgasms, his job is to keep pretty for me and keep me happy with that lovely mouth of his.