Discovered I'm Mostly Gay, But There's A Problem Pt. 3

I told him I was 29 years old when we talked on Grindr. I definitely look 29, maybe even younger. Usually I tell people 29 because if I told them my real age they wouldn't believe me. Anyway, I told him I'm really about 10 years older, married (to a woman), and have kids. He took it very well and didn't get upset with me. Like everyone he was shocked by my age, but also by everything else. Of course he had a million questions. How many kids do I have, how long have I been married... I told him the truth about everything.

I told him how I had been in a sexless marriage for over 10 years. We didn't even have sex on our wedding night, and not for lack of me trying. Long story short, she just really doesn't like sex that much. I can literally count on one hand the number of times we had sex over the last 5+ years. She doesn't know about my urges toward men and can't know. I thought I was just letting off some steam by getting something my wife can't or won't give me. I didn't realize how much I'd love it. I told him about how my marriage is super platonic.

I don't remember all I said, other than I was truthful... For the first time I told someone everything. Now he knew all my secrets. He asked a lot of questions and was concerned about every aspect of what I was going through and what it could mean going forward. I remember he stood up and asked me to stand up... When he said that I know I stammered a little bit because I wasn't sure what he was going to say or do... I managed to croak out "you're not going to hit me are you?" He laughed and told me to stand up again. When I did he gave me a big hug and told me he was going to have to think about whether he wanted to continue a relationship and that he was sorry I was so lonely and had no one to talk to. I stressed to him that the reason I told him is because I did really like him and if there was ever a chance at us really being friends with benefits I had to tell him. He said it might take a while to process and we said our goodbyes.

I spent the next few days verbally kicking myself... Thinking things like "obviously he's going to say no. I'm like 15 years older than him and married. He's hot and could probably get any number of guys. Why would he want to hook up with me?" So basically I spent the next few days convincing myself I would never hear from him again. I remember one night I finally put my phone down on the nightstand ready to let it go, ready to accept that I'll probably never have sex again... I had told him as much. I was tired to looking around, living a sexless life and wanted to find one guy to connect with, but if this wasn't it, I was going to give up.

The next morning I woke up to a text from him. It said "hey, sorry it took a few days to process, but I think I want to keep meeting."

It's been about a week since and we hook up whenever we can. He's training me to deepthroat him. Today we met in a parking lot and I sucked him off in his car. He's been sending me messages telling me how good I make him feel and I've been giving him similar compliments. Since I told him the truth it feels more like we're actually dating on the DL rather than just hooking up. I can't wait to see what else our relationship brings, but he made me realize I'm mostly gay, and mostly a bottom...