A Woman

I should and do know better but here i am...obsessed with a younger woman. She reminds me of another younger woman i was enamoured with but who sadly passed away before we could start an affair.
She is not especially good looking or glamorous, she doesn't wear revealing or sexy clothes, she's no 'party' girl but she has that 'je ne sais quoi' that draws me to her like a moth to a flame.
When i am around her i lose my self. I do not act like a giddy school boy with his first crush or like a silly old man flattered by the attention of a much younger woman but i want her to like me ! To see me as a friend and as a lover. Oh yes i mean a lover and not some random sexual conquest to enjoy the memory of in my fading years.
There is the wonderful mixture of desire and longing. It's b een a minute since i felt such feelings and they are a little alien to me just now but i am wrestling with them. I do not want to be the older man she falls for nor i for her, i have witnessed the damage such affairs wreak upon lives and the end results are never pretty.
So what do i want this to be ? Just what i think it should be...a fling, a friends with benefits, a brief encounter with the right goodbye and some hot sex as well.
Yes i want to feel her, the heat and sweat and moans and whispers and the funny faces and expressions of passion and lust as we fuck. I want that moment when i see her naked for the first time and fight the desire to ravish her like a wild animal in heat, i want to feel her nails rake across my back and hear her say my name in the throws of ecstatic passion, i want to feel her tongue running over me and for me to taste her on mine....i want to leave a hotel room looking like a rock star threw a wild party in it but i was just the two of us fucking like wild animals.
Obsession is a dangerous thing....but then again who doesn't enjoy a little danger.