(I apologize in advance if this is too long, it's...complicated)
It started back in '97. I worked with a girl, I'll call her Penny. Penny and I never saw eye to eye. She didn't like to do her job and frankly, I do not get along with lazy people. It irks me to put it nicely. The details to why this happened elude me after 6 years. She ended up putting a knife to my throat and threatening to slice me. I told her to go ahead. I wasn't really afraid of her. Besides, it was a very racist town, she is non white, and she would not get away with it at all. (I'm not racist, just stating a fact for the story) After that debacle, I had not seen hide nor hair of her up until about a month ago.
She was friends with my husband back then. She had since moved out of town and was gone. Guess what! She came back in town, and yes, she wants to get ahold of him. He heard the news about a month ago and told me she was back and he was interested in hanging out. This highly upset me and we talked about it. I did no yelling nor acusing, just relaying the story I have told you here and asked him if he would please not see her. Seeing the pained look in my eyes, he agreed.
Well, I just got home and heard her message to him. Needless to say, my nerves are shot. Hearing her voice absolutely kills me. I will let my husband hear it. I will also let him know how I feel about it. My question is, how do I get over my hate for her? I have prayed amongst other things and just hearing her voice makes me grit my teeth and make fists. I hate her. I really really hate her. Help! This is not fair to my husband but it's also not fair to me.
p/s if he really wants to see her, I will not stop him but I outright refuse to participate.