I Don't Want To Stop

Back during the pandemic lockdown, we needed money desperately. I found my way to doing modeling or lingerie housekeeping and that was meant to be the extent of it as far as I knew.

It did not take me long to realize it was pretty much just a cover for prostitution. As in, pretty much the first client. After that first one, I felt very conflicted. Yes, the money was great and would keep us from losing our home but on the other hand I just let a man more than twice my age at the time fuck me, bare, and cum inside me. For money.

When I went home and gave him the money, part of me wanted to tell him I would never do it again and Im so sorry but he was amazed. 'You got all this just for letting some old guy see you dressed sexy while you cleaned?'

'Um...yep. Thats it.'

'Babe, thats amazing, when is the next job?'

Four years later, I am still doing it. Upwards of a dozen clients a week sometimes. I am a whore, and he has no idea. For some of my regulars, when they were short on cash, I still took care of them no charge. I very very much enjoy my very very active sex life, and I don't want to stop but I am at an impasse as he is now talking about it being time to have children. While my whoring has paid off our vehicles, and cut our house payment in half with large amounts down. We have next to no debt. All cause of money I made.

I am unsure what to do now.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 15, 2024 at 4:43 AM

That first time wasn't so bad was it?
When did you realise you loved it?

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 15, 2024 at 5:17 AM

Good for you he does t need to know. Give him the kid he wants and stay at it. You would be surprised guys are into pregos as well. I fucked my neighbor until the day before she went into the hospital for her scheduled section. I thought our affair would slow down but it was the opposite. She was supposed to wait to have sex but a week later she was back under me. This time her tits were nice and full. When she came she would leak milf from her tits. We now have another baby in the oven and fuck like animals. Yes I’m pretty sure the first baby is mine as well.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 15, 2024 at 5:48 PM

So, first reply person. I realized I loved it pretty much right away yeah. I think i was conflicted of course cause wanting to be a 'good wife' and all that.

Second reply person, the problem of course being it would be extremely unlikely that if I get pregnant now it would be my husbands. The child may not look anything like him, or even be of the same race given the wide range of clients I serve.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 16, 2024 at 4:59 PM

Try telling him-hope he appreciates what a great wife he has. You might have to slow down a little until you get pregnant. The baby should be your husband- but keep your nice job.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 21, 2024 at 2:50 PM

Some non-horny advice. You have a couple of options.

1. Accept this is you and seek a divorce. You will have to feign a reason, don't let your 'real' job become public. You can split your assets and find a well-off cuckold instead who will love what you do. Trust me, there are tonnes of them. Check out Fetlife.

2. Acknowledge that you did this out of desperation and you will wean yourself off the job. No new clients and cut down until you only have a few regulars who will pay well while you look for a new job. Set a date in the calendar for 6 months. After that date, no more 'cleaning'. You can explain to your hubby you are tired of being objectified and want something different.

If you go this route, never tell a soul. Take it to your grave. Not your husband, not your bestie, not your priest, not your therapist. If you need therapy, talk about how you cheated in a previous relationship and that it's weighing on you.

As Aristotle said, you are not defined by individual choices, but by your choices over time. So, either choose to put this behind you or embrace it. A limbo state will keep you unhappy and potentially blow up your marriage (unless you want that).

Finally, don't have kids if you can help it. They cost a shit tonne of money. Get a pet.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 21, 2024 at 2:58 PM

More non-horny advice.

If you want to go with option 1. above, after you cut ties with your husband I suggest you learn how to be a domme. Learn from pros, go to community workshops, read books, etc. Plenty of cuckolds also want to submit, as well as have other guys fuck their wives. Understanding domination will make you an attractive partner, and help you call the shots in the relationship.

Understand that if you keep in shape, realisticly you only have 8-10 years of whoring potential left, so a new cuckold partner should be able to support you whether you get paid or not. 10-15 years out of the normal workforce won't leave you will a lot of high-paid jobs, so it's imperative that he has assets.

Hope this all helps.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 21, 2024 at 3:06 PM

Last bit of non-horny advice.

I think it be best if you make a decision sooner rather than later. The longer you keep things in the current state the more likely your husband eventually finds out. This kind of info is a divorce lawyers wet-dream.

Further, your partner may name and shame you, alienating your friends, family, and people in your life. Your support network is valuable and you will need it if you do get a divorce.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Oct 27, 2024 at 4:02 PM

It's a door that your husband opened a solution, and only you are the one who will decide if you are to retire as a SW. I pretty sure I have accidentally impregnated 2 providers over my 25 years in the hobby.
They happily kept the baby, one was used as an anchor ⚓ baby till she got her green card figured out.

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