I've Got An Addiction

I've got an addiction that I don't know if I can stop. I'm married with some kids (2 of my own and one step) and I can't seem to control myself when it comes to getting happy ending massages. My wife doesn't know obviously. At least not yet, but I feel like it's only a matter of time. I've literally spent thousands of dollars at this point on them, I've been carrying this activity on for quite a while. She's been suspicious before about some money withdraws that I've managed to quell. But it's hard to step away from this. I feel weak because these are just fucking handjobs for fuck sake, I should be able to stop. But you know how it is after a few years of marriage, the romance sort of dulls and either the wife "isn't in the mood" or you gotta take a pill to "get in the mood." And I truly don't mean to speak ill about my wife. I love her, and she's pretty attractive. But the same old thing year after year makes any man crave more variety, and those men that say they don't crave more variety are just lying to you. When a blonde 23 year old hottie is rubbing me down, I don't need to take a fucking pill because I'm bricked up hard enough my dick could be a coat hanger haha. The massage itself is actually an overlooked aspect I think. Because if done right, you'll feel so loose and relaxed that by the time they start fondling and playing with your dick you'll feel like you're on a cloud. As crazy as it sounds, I feel like these massages are going to save my marriage. So I have no intention on stopping.