My Autistic Son

When my son was 3 sadly father passed way in a motorcycle accident. As he grew I found out that he had autism though he was on the scale of high functioning, which is makes him more quirky and awkward than anything. One thing though that I noticed as when he got into his teens and grew quick is that he was constantly touching himself. I come to find out that hypersexuality is common in people with autism, which I never knew. Needless to say I started to help him out so he wasn’t touching himself in public. It was nothing super big, like handjobs in the morning before school (this started middle of teens). As I said he is high functioning so he understands full well that he can’t tell people. Well one evening without really thinking I put it in my mouth when I was giving a handjob while we were watching tv. I took it out immediately and apologized because I truly didn’t mean it, just kind of autopilot there for a bit. Well he said it felt good and asked if I could do it again and I kind of reluctantly did. At first you know a handjob is one thing but a blowjob is a whole other level you know. Well the first few minutes were def weird but after in my mind I kept saying it’s just a cock he tells me he was close and I just kept going and before I know it, boom, a few spurts into my mouth. I had boyfriends over the years, none really worked and that was the first time in years I had a taste of cum. It was exactly the same as I remembered which actually helped a bit. By that I mean my son just came in my mouth but it tasted like cum, same ol cum as always so it was more like, cum is cum so it is fine. This didn’t quite replace handjobs but I used my mouth a lot and made clean up a lot easier as I don’t mind swallowing. So here we are a few years later now he is a fine young man and ya so after these years I have let my son use me anyways. I have had my son inside me any place his cock can go it, mostly cause I do enjoy vaginal and anal sex. Here is the thing, this confession isn’t about doing stuff with my son. This confession is because last night he fucked my brains out to the point that I might of had the best orgasm I my life and I confess that it’s no longer about my son, I use my son to get off. Getting him off I do to help him but I use him every time and I am somewhat ashamed of myself. I always knew I have but I wouldn’t tell admit it, last night I couldn’t deny it anymore. I tell myself sure I swallow his cum or I let him shoot loads up my pussy or my ass, that’s the trade off it’s fine but I am still his mother and I’m ashamed at what I hav become and I honestly don’t want it to stop. This confession won’t stop anything. I will probably take his cock tonight whatever way it happens, I’ll take him cum and I’ll love it. I just have to get it off my chest to anyone who will listen because I have to get it off my chest.