Loving Nature

I suffered alot growing up as the youngest in a big family, the mental and physical abuse that I endured deeply effected me and left a lasting impression well into adulthood.

Before I'd even hit puberty I'd already suffered the unwanted sexual attention of others and this created confusion and urges in me that I'd never felt before, helping somewhat to foment my sexuality as a young teenager. When I discovered the joys of masturbation I used it to block out the emotional pain I'd always carried due to the lack of love I'd received from my parents and and older siblings.

Pornographic magazines and self pleasure became an instant addiction. I never had a sexual playmate due to my shyness and lack of friends so I would indulge in my shameful gay submissive fantasies alone. Rarely could I ever find any privacy at home so I would seek quiet, out of the way places in the nearby countryside and woodland.

It was such a thrill to discover a secluded spot within the forest and it was there that I would hide whilst flicking through the pages of hardcore magazines. Seeing those pictures of beautiful women taking long, hard, thick cocks in every hole with cum coating their smiling faces would get me so hot. I imagined what that must feel like and longed to be just like them.

I'd even begun to wear white stockings and suspenders under my clothes on these daring excursions. I'd slowly undress, leaving my clothes in a pile and then with my heart racing and erect cock throbbing, I'd gently stroke myself.

I was soon enough close to shooting my load but I eased off the trigger, keen to save my climax for the main show that I had planned. I walked away from my safe place as far as I possibly could dare myself to go.

This was insanity, what would happen if I was caught out here all alone, scantily dressed in sexy white lingerie, this could all go so badly for me. I was never that far from a busy trail so this was a mighty risk to take but I was so horny with the thought that I might be being watched by unseen eyes that I felt compelled to put on a daring xxx show of my unbridled queerness.

Let's be clear, in truth I wanted to be found in this nude and wanton state, I craved to be captured and used like a slut and I wanted it bad.

I was completely hooked by the sensory overload. The sexual arousal flowing through my lithe teen body, the cool summer breeze exciting my bare skin, making my nipples hard and the fragrant aroma of woodland flora carried through the air, all combined to make the whole experience intoxicating.

By this stage in my young life I had already been fucking my ass using various objects but the thought of indulging in anal play outdoors just increased my sexual abandon to a whole new level.

I hesitantly walked through the trees, being careful not to make too much noise. I was acutely alert to any sound or movement that might warn me of a stranger approaching and slowly I kept walking, weaving my way through the bushes stopping occasionally to bathe in the dappled sunlight, gently stroking my cock that seemed almost ready to burst and occasionally tasting my salty pre cum, I felt so naughty. I looked behind, I was too far away to even see where I'd left my clothes and if anyone walked this way now my hasty flight would undoubtedly give my whereabouts away.

I soon reached a small clearing just a few yards from a trail, the cover here was sparse and no doubt I would risk being seen if someone walked by. I'd be completely at the mercy of anyone with bad intentions if they stumbled upon me in this naked, vulnerable and aroused state but it was this element of risk that aroused me so.

I was soon stroking my hard cock with more enthusiasm, I had brought with me a contoured plastic, 8 inch long shampoo bottle with ridges along its length that I forced deep in my stretched out ass.

I'd by this point completely lost myself in the moment and just had to cum. I laid on the bare earth and then rolled my legs over my head so my knees were by my ears and my stiff cock was pointed toward my open mouth ready to accept its creamy reward. I was so horny Imagining that I might be sharing the finale of my solo sex show with a voyeur hiding unnoticed. With my ass crammed with my makeshift dildo my orgasm was perhaps the most intense of my life and I shot my thick load of cum over my face, coating my expectant tongue with a creamy reward.

I felt so drained afterwards but this was not the time to get caught as I made my walk of shame back to my clothes which were maybe only 75 yards away but my god did it feel so much farther than that with my face covered in cum. As the arousal wore off my worst fear was that I'd find my clothes had been taken but fortunately for me that nightmare scenario never materialised.

I often think about that time and how it could have ended so very differently that afternoon, especially if I'd been lucky enough to have been discovered by someone as kinky as myself.