Her Existence Makes Me Squirt So Hard

I am 4'6 60 lb red head very pale female thought i was into guys but then came across Amazon Ashley Adair that is 6'8 and well over 300 lbs a very tall black amazon with a VERY big butt. I turned lesbian and never went back. I want to let everyone know I always think of her when I masturbate and I squirt very very hard across the room thinking of her dominating me in many ways especially crushing my face with her big butt and telling me she will paralyze me if i dont kiss it over and over. I feel very tall black women with big butts are goddesses and really really want one in my life like that. Why can I not help but be into that type and lust for them?